I am exhausted
I close my eyes and try to ground myself by feeling my body sinking into the earth
My ears are ringing and my head is spinning
Dread is gnawing at the pit of my stomach
My girlfriend once said
A strong woman once held her head in the palm of her hand
So she didn’t have to carry the weight of her head anymore
I can’t sleep
Or I can’t stay awake
My heart is beating too fast
I doubt this feeling will ever end
Dear Jonathan,
Thank you for reminding me
To take a chill pill
And a warm bath
I don’t know how to ask for help
But you help me anyway
February is the longest shortest month
Thinking of you. There is no weakness in taking care of your needs. Spring will come eventually. Lots of warm baths, snuggles with your animal friends and humans and sleep, if you can get it. Wishing you calm, peace and rest.